不哭了... 该加油了...

AFA '09 (captions will be included soon)

2009-11-29T02:33:00.028+08:00

trip to JB... happy!

2009-11-14T16:12:00.030+08:00

met mammy after for lunch at tampines mall food court.
queued for singtel promo to but new phone.
went shopping while waiting.
bought bao yang ping & cosmetics at ELIANTO the shop right outside singtel.
spent $150 on the both of us.
shocked.

met boy to exchange keychains.
walked around tamp central.

went to hui hui's 21st chalet.
so many people.
went up chalet room and fell asleep.

uncle chan came fetching mii at around 1am after his work...
went JB!

reached JB 4 plus...
bak kut teh close already...
so we went to the malay indian eatery...

piics took with my new phone...

uncle chan tok this piic of his favourite "ducati"

wanted to go to the New York Hotel de...
but too late, all rooms booked...
so the receptionist recommended us to the newly opened hotel across...

GRAND PARAGON HOTEL...

the plant outside the lobby...

the lobby with elegant/class lights...

world time for different nationalities...

TV in the centre of lobby...

lobby...

their lobby counter...

cheap cigar uncle chan bought...

vip room at the side of the lobby...

our room, 22nd floor...

superb night view from our room!

twin bedroom. 2 large single bed!

cosy corner...

plasma teewee...

full length mirror outside the toilet...

toilet... bathtub!!

mr & mrs lee washed up and headed down for breakfast...

cafe para para...

buffet sytled breakfast.
western, chinese, malay, desserts, noodles, porrigde, nasi lemak, toast, sunny side up, bacon & ham... ... ...
who knows... up till here... my batt died...
so have to continue to take piics with uncle chan's phone...

outdoor swimming pool at 11th floor...

went to DA MA pasar for dinner...
ate zu chao then went bac to hotel le...

went up to the hotel's highest floor...
SKY LOUNGE...

see the shiny crytal ball?!

small candle light at every table...
KILLKINEY (i think this is how it spelled) beer that uncle chan ordered for us...
waitress said if im not used to beers, can ask hubby to finish it for mii...
hehe...

isnt the ambience nice?...

the stage. a singer. a very nice voice. very nice songs.

red piano at the side of it...

the night view outside the lounge...
drizzling.

went back to our room. slept. rushed backed to singapore.

happy trip to JB ends here...

continuing on coming christmas...

wee!

our first "date"

2009-09-26T15:07:00.002+08:00

23 Aug Sunday.

8plus pm.

dinner with uncle chan.
took cab to kallang leisure park.
met you at your workplace, pastamania.
took bus 11 out to kallang mrt station.
then train to somerset.
cineleisure.
planned to watch movie.
but too late already.

you complained.
that should have called you on my way back.

walked to lucky plaza.
you were so confrim that i know how to play pool.
forgotten which floor was it.
stupid indian said they're closed.
wasted trip again.
& the toilet sucks.

went strolling instead.
bought drinks from 7-11.
yours was blue amsterdam (beer).
laughed at mii just bcos i bought jolly shandy.

settled down at youth park.
talked to mii bout all your problems & thinkings.
told mii how unreasonable, not understanding
& how sensitive your wife was.
told mii you were having confusing feelings on this girl from your workplace.
from then i somehow know.
it was mii.

talked about my dressing during work.
suggested mii to wear baggy clothes.
just bcos you liked it.
promised to go shopping together one day.

told you i was tired around 2plus am.
agreed to go home.
saw a car accident.
kaypoh-ed awhile.

you hailed a cab,
opened the door for mii.
received your call inside the cab.
told mii you were on your way home too.
& asked mii,
"how do you think of mii?"
a very nice guy, i answered.

this was the day.
we started to get so close.
story continues...

9412

2009-09-22T23:16:00.002+08:00

if cutting wrist can really make you come back to mii...

i will...

love him more then anyone can imagine...

2009-09-21T14:58:00.002+08:00

20.09.09 13:18
" one last time i'm teling you i'm sorry i will never accept you as anybody even your the last girl on earth till i die i will always be with my wife so respect this i'm married i have my own family."

just let mii die...

im a bitch

2009-09-15T23:01:00.002+08:00

i lost my bloody samsung phone...
how inefficient COMFORT DELGRO is...
precious photos all gone...
so bloody sad...

i just broke kevin's marriage...
the wife found out everything...
they're divorcing soon...
she willing to give kevin to mii...

should i be happy bout it?...

same old brand new school...

2009-07-19T14:37:00.011+08:00

went back to PRSS for private O exam...
so long never go back le...
its so different now...
the new students are so fortunate...

water fountain at the entrance

the super big sneakers that ow borrowed mii...

new blk...
brand new old blk..

the hall: there's a piano at the corner...

field's gone... where they assemble...

d & t blk demolished... replace with indoor basketball court.

canteen... the stalls are still the same...

lets go back on teacher's day okay?...

SJ

2009-07-12T21:27:00.002+08:00

"sorry, sorry" by Super Junior

Super Junior is a korean boyband with 13 members...
currently the largest boyband right now...

this video... very cool de...
they shot it all the way... no edits & no N.G.s...

a weird emotion...

2009-06-28T14:47:00.003+08:00

cant get i 0ff my mind...
why cant i just stop thinking...

didnt sleep well...
stupid dream...

feel like crying...
i cant cry...

this shouldnt be happening...
everthing was fine...

he slapped mii...
i left...

kind of hate him...
but dunno how to...

never said "no" before...
maybe just another unappreciative bastard...

for all ive done...
only hope a "sorry" & "thank you" in return...

2009-05-01T03:25:00.002+08:00

Emo Quotes

The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone.
I cry for the time that you were almost mine, I cry for the memories I've left behind, I cry for the pain, the lost, the old the new, I cry for the times I thought I had you
Not all scars show, not all wounds heal Sometimes you can't always see The pain someone feels
Whats the sense of wishing for something when I always just wish it away?
Every night i talk to the stars pretending its you.. it acts just like you tho.. far away and never replies to my questions
Why do people tell you to believe in what you want to but then tell you not to believe in the one true thing you do believe in?
Times a precious thing to waste, but friends are more precious
Kiss me im emo!
The sad truth is that most evil is done by people who never make up their minds to be good or evil.
The saddest aspect of life right now is that science gathers knowledge faster than society gathers wisdom.
Do not assume that he who seeks to comfort you now, lives untroubled among the simple and quiet words that sometimes do you good. His life may also have much sadness and difficulty, that remains far beyond yours. Were it otherwise, he would never have been able to find these words.

extracted from Emo Quotes

chat that lasted for 6 hrs...

2009-05-01T01:34:00.002+08:00

had a very long talk with boy...
& made mii realised alot of things...

i was wrong... so wrong all these while...
lost to her... again...

please dont treat mii nicely anymore...

everyone around mii saw thru his lies... except for mii...
but i still cant forget him...

always be my baby...

useless & failure in life...
need a breakthru...

should be better off dead...

hate this world...
cant differentiate dreams & reality...

very sad but cant cry...

how can i change myself?
what to do to make him mine?...

all alone now...

17 again...

2009-04-28T03:03:00.002+08:00

17 again
starring ZAC EFRON
funny & heart-warming

i want to be 17 again...

im in love with zac efron!
he's sooo cute!

the only one who understand miic now...

long lost mail...

2009-04-26T02:06:00.001+08:00

07 January 2007

U think ur hurt?? U think that there might be a chance that i mayb wanted 2
talk 2 u also and i'm not angry abt the part i waited in vain for nothing
until 3 plus.. u know how pissed i was when sdq called me wif dan babbling
in the background like as if i'm controlling u what they think right?? make
me look like wat! and i dont even want 2 know the way u reacted when they
called cause u must have been acting the exact opposite i would have wanted
u 2 be behaving.. and u dont even bother 2 msg and apologise 2 me or
anything..  and fyi even after that i still had trouble sleeping tats how
used i am 2 talking 2 u.. and dont say i never tell u i want 2 talk u know i
have a very big ego so u think i'm gonna say smtg like tat i just want 2 act
like dont care right..

And sorry if ur hurt abt the testi 2 me a testi is no big deal i didnt know
you'll be that hurt.

Also u want 2 talk abt how much u mean 2 me.. if u mean nothing or at least
all u think i'm would change my sleeping pattern for somebody who meant
little 2 me and the way u always treat me i tolerate and talk 2 u if u meant
little 2 me u think i will tolerate?!? and smtg u dont know u know on the
days ur working there are time that i wait for u 2 come online one day i
still remember very clearly was the day u watch movie wif dan and edde, i
waited for hours until i tot u were gonna mia so i went offline and msg u b4
sleeping, now u know i wait 4 u 2 come online,  if u meant little would i do
smtg like that?? and if ur no one 2 me would i care when u cry am i not
always concern for u when u cry after all this and u still can say now u noe
how much u mean 2 me.. It's sad

TAlk abt how much u mean 2 me.. do u ever think abt how u treat me u always
say that i mean lots 2 u and i believe but u think of just how abt the way u
treat me ok.. its saddening u always gimme that dont care atitude when u see
me ok..but still i tolerate and talk 2 u..ur always laughing at me and stuff
like that.2 many things

So i hope this clears up everything and u know how much u mean 2 me..

Do me this favor and think after u read this
think abt the way ur always only caring abt the way u feel like as if i have
no feelings but i always keep it inside, think abt the u treat me after u
now know how i feel abt everything, think abt me and think if i really mean
that much 2 u why do u really behave the way u do around me and put urself
in my shoes abt how i feel all u do is buy stuff but never care abt my
feelings i would give all the material things u bought for me just for u 2
treat me as a real friend like how i've treated u.


And btw i wanted 2 talk 2 on the fone u today but u went out wif ur frens so
nvm.. and everything i type here is the truth from my heart. and my eyes are
wet and red not crying but wet after thinking of all this..

Yours Truly

shopping at tamp 1!

2009-04-16T01:36:00.011+08:00

im sorry i was too lazy to update this blog...

and finally im not lazy to go to the doctors...
=.=
woke up very very early at 8...
(i wanted to go back to sleep)
took a little sweet time to prepare...
reach polyclinic around 9.30AM!
thought the process of my consultation will be shorter
since i waited less then 5 mins for registration...
who knows...
i ended up waitng for 1 1/2 hours...
so bored & so cold over there...
lucky no medicine...
if not i'll go crazy waiting...
conclusion was...
need to go back 2 weeks later...
sian...

benny called at lunch time...
ask mii working or not...
i knew his motive...
was to go pizza hut for benefits...
& fetched mii to TM with the car he rented...
he's a lousy driver...
haha

doctor gave mii a MC...
i was excused for work...
gave it to the bootlicker manager...
& ate in PH!
with siang leng SH & his classmates...

after lunch...
i bugged benny to go Tamp 1...
thought can finally shop there...
end up WALKing around only...

2 plus...
benny & gang going back to school...
met mudd...
& we really SHOPped in Tamp 1!
wee!

UNIQLO!
u need to Q to get in...
exaggerating hor?...

sooo many people...
& we got in!
Qed for only around 10 mins...

bought grey polo; $29.90
mini skirt; $6.90
grey's nice!
dunno why im so into grey recently...

mashi maro from More Than Words only $9.90!
cute & cheap!

coincidently i bought masks today!
also must take care my face from today...

cant wait for next payday so i can go shopping again!

i just love & cant resist shopping like typical girls...
cos im typical!
haha...

as usual...
i went back to work (although i got mc)
but pity them got not enough staff...
hais always the same problem...

& same old situations at work...
hate indians...
still hope to bomb india...

are we going to be the same like before?

2009-04-03T02:17:00.004+08:00

mood getting a little bit better recently...

of cos i remember that 401 KFC guy!

he finally talked to mii!
although it's 2 short sentences...
but its alright...
im satisfied...
really...

hope your feelings towards mii havent change...
please baby...
dont...

cant wait for later & payday!

clearing my debts slowly...

getting back my number soon!

2009-03-30T01:46:00.000+08:00

sily dont love ayut anymore...

earth hour

2009-03-29T02:23:00.004+08:00

Earth Hour Singapore

too tired to work...
we were hoping everything will be switched off in TM...
so can close store...
but we know they wont cos' they lose alot alot of money...

while others celebrates Earth Hour by using more electricity...
=.=
we tried to do our little part by switching off our handphones...

a slight telepathy frequency flowED (is there such word?) through...
thinking & missed you...
and there i hear your voice near mii...

hate to think what are you thinking!

trip to pu tien...

2009-03-18T03:47:00.007+08:00

was late(as usual) meeting miic at 3...

went PU TIEN chinese restaurant for our hight tea buffet...

it was so packeduntil the waitress brought us to a table meant for 12...

just for the 2 of us!

the buffet counter...

varities of chinese food

i ordered apple juice...

xiao long bao

yum yum...

food over there not bad...

miic also agreed...

you can go try...

only $10.80++ on from mondays to thurdays
& $12.80++ for fridays, saturdays & sunday...

has miic start answering calls?... hmmm

2009-03-17T02:24:00.003+08:00

hais...

want to update...

but dunno what to write...

cousin habsah came by pizza hut yesterday...

with her husband?... maybe boyfriend...

& her little son...

forgot whats was his name...
sad memory of mine...

babies are all so cute...
not the time i can have one now...

2009-03-16T02:53:00.001+08:00

sick & tired of the cold shoulders...

2009-03-12T03:01:00.002+08:00

today's 4D Lottery results...

1730

darling ayut you see this?...

you gave mii this number...

the number represent you & mii...

ask mii to buy (although i never)...

stupid pig

mr farker

mr crybaby

where are you...

i need you...

why are mrs manis words so true?...

mrs crybaby is here waiting...

will always be...

2009-03-11T21:24:00.006+08:00

3rd day rotting at home le...

weather today...

erm... not bad...

i think...

my baby izumi...

cute?...

trying to earn more trophies...

this is HAN...

im using da ge's account to feed him...

my baby too...

cant wait for tomorrow...

hehe...

im kind of addicted to pet society!

2009-03-11T20:47:00.000+08:00

been rotting at home for 2 days le....

all i did was sleep eating & computer...

again...

facebook pet society was all i played...

neglected my mangas and animes...

went out for dinner with boy & es...

bought a new mouse for this stupid lappie...

but boy say watse money...

=.=

headed to central park sit sit talk talk...

xiao jo's bday...

took a very very very long time...

finally came out with a conclusion...

L4D at 800+...

yes... L4D again...

the person there very rude lor...

but the computer there not bad...

at least soooo much better then princess the...

transformer2 revenge of the fallen...

24th june 2009...

im soooo going to watch it...

darlingx will be watching with mii de right?...

final destination 4

another movie i want to watch...

but dunno when coming out...

but i scared...

=.=

anybody interested?...

2009-03-11T18:41:00.000+08:00

after my work...

met boy, es & brandon...

our usual group...

finally...

very long never hang out together le...

went to simpang bedok...

wanted to play lan at crossfire...

want lan game?...

the usual L4D lor...

saturday night...

of cos packed...

so we eat at the prata shop next door first...

who knows...

all orders went wrong...

made us wait do long for our food...

coincidently saw daniel chan, winner, cherlyn...

they playing lan at crossfire too...

but they went in before us...

cos their friend booked the computers earlier then us...

hais...

some screenshots of out favourite game L4D...

do you feel like playing too?...

only 4 maps...

play long le...

of ocs will feel bored de...

but what counts is the people playing with you...

enough of waiting...

we went to bedok princess there de lan...

and we'll never go back again...

enviroments suck...

computers suck...

person in charge knows nothing about the game & computer features...

hais...

my wrong recommendation again....

we should've go parklane in the first place...

2009-03-03T03:36:00.001+08:00

i just created facebook account!

like so long when darlingx bugs mii everyday...

=.=

2009-03-02T22:36:00.004+08:00

so poor... no money...

so sad... no honey...

where my luck gone too?...

everything's so not right...

miss those 14d days...

miss those lies...

i only hope to spend a simple life with a simple guy...

2009-02-27T22:15:00.015+08:00

took mc from work...

met darlingx & precious jayden at around 5...

i was late... again (hehe)...

go all the way to marina square...

for this CREATIVE INDUSTRIES FAIR 2009...

organised by WDA...

the brochure

their objective

overview of the fair from the top

people giving talk

not much people as imagined...

pathetic...

i also dunno whats this is for...

~.~

stalls set up by companies...

girl caught eatting snake...

also their objective

~.~

list of participating companies

list of training courses available...

list of jobs available...

The Creative Industries (CI) Fair 2009 is an inaugural event organised by the Singapore Workforce Development Agency (WDA) and supported by the Ministry of Information, Communications and the Arts (MICA), National Arts Council (NAC), Media Development Authority (MDA), Infocomm Development Authority (IDA), DesignSingapore Council (DSG), and SPRING Singapore.

This is the first time that the Government is organizing an event to showcase the various job, career conversion and skills upgrading opportunities in the Creative Industries which cover the Arts & Culture, Media & Communications, and the Design subsectors.

The CI Fair 2009 will feature at least 300 jobs, 100 apprenticeship places, and 1000 training opportunities. Visitors can also find out more about the jobs available from companies, programmes to help individuals convert into the Creative Industries; as well as training courses to assist existing creative individuals to upskill and prepare for the upturn.

Exciting daily programmes are scheduled at the CI Fair 2009 where all visitors can get to interact with and hear from employers, creative professionals, agencies, trainers and individual workers sharing more on the Creative Industries. Besides these talks and forums, there will also be demonstrations and workshops at the fair.

extracted from WDA's site...
see how lazy i am...
hehe...

my precious jayden bugging mii & darlingx to take picture for him...
so cute haha...

walked around marina squre aimlessly...
with no money, shopping seems very bored...
cant buy anything...
~.~

now at home...
so early again...
waiting for people's call go play mahjong...
better dont put mii areoplane...
super sian!...

i seriously need a boyfriend!

2009-02-25T18:11:00.003+08:00

been rotting at home for 3 days le...

sleep, eat & computer thats all i did...

becoming more 7 more piig le...

~.~

went out of awhile yesterday...

ate dinner with mudd at long john using coupons at 7 plus

walk around tamp central & eastpoint for those stupid earpiece rubber...

10 plus already reach home le...

not like mii lor...

hais...

spend like dunno how long just to type 1 simple resume...

waiting for my cousin to reply...

looking thru for jobs online...

meaningless to stay in pizza hut anymore...

='(

Gin Tama!

my super save $ching$ $ching$ destress method recently...

heart warming & lame...

haha...

this month's utilities bill confirm blow again lor...

confirm kena fark... again...

hais...

where all good man gone to?!

i need a boyfriend!

instincts & 6th sense...

2009-02-24T01:51:00.006+08:00

do you believe in your instincts & 6th senses?...

~ well i do...

are those intincts & 6th senses true?...

~ most of mine...

do you like it when they're true?...

~ nope... i hate them...

'cause my instincts told mii that you dont love mii at all...

& you still care for mii...

"He's Just Not That Into You"

finally got to watch this movie last saturday night

after bugging darling for so long...

basically its about

how girls interprets guys signals...

what guys really means...

relationships between females & males...

i strongly recommend it...

darling says he likes it too

hate it the same time cos its like talking about him...

but i give 5 ***** stars!!!

i go get their book too...

does it really matter if i really want to open the studio...

or just for your sake?...

i need a boyfriend!!!

after a thousand years...

2009-02-20T03:03:00.003+08:00

updating my blog finally when im not lazy...

was working as usual...

very busy day for mii...

bloody ice creams i have to do...

to make things worse...

argued with darling...

for the first time...

he even said i pissed him off!

my fault too... partially...

dont know why i was so unreasonable...

so not understanding like i used to be...

darling... im sorry...

sorry i made your day worse too...

took bus to punggol to meet da ge under his house after work...

talked about my problems... my future...

i've made a decision...

will call my cousin ask her for a full time office job & work part time in ph....

finally...

boy want to meet mii to discuss about our work...

so 大哥 drove mii back to meet boy & eng sing with his dad's car...

cant stop smiling inside car on the way to tamp...

so happy for him...

his driving skills not bad...

dont look like someone who just passed TP...

met them at mac...

compared to coffee bean...

mac's double choc frappe is not nice at all...

boy got his medical check up later...

but he dont know how to go...

so i call like 5,6 people... ping, sky & shawn never pick up...

din forgot how to go, daniel called back like dont know how long later...

only kok hoe answered and remembered how to go...

see the things i did...

see how much i still care for him...

so nice of 大哥 to send mii & eng sing home...

hope he recognised the way home...

going to go take my BTT again...

thanks the motivation from 大哥...

where can i go?... what can i do?...

2009-01-19T01:39:00.002+08:00

3 days of silence...

i can somehow sense your unhappiness...

how fake your smiles & laughs were...

to face the truth & accept reality...

are you suffering?...

ii am...

can time please turn back?...

or can we just pretend nothing happened?...

back to the happy moments we had together...

kind of hard... ii think so too...

cant carry on like this right?...

ii only wish for a simple man...

with a simple life...

2009-01-10T02:51:00.003+08:00

stupid government increase utilities for what...

kpkb i treat home like hotel...
kpkb i use too much electricity...
kpkb i work ph no money...

detest mii? want to drive mii out of house?...
dare you to do it...

one day i'll leave home for you to see!

super 3 in 1

2009-01-05T02:04:00.003+08:00

got super irritated by my retard cousin today...

keep on coming in to my room disturbing mii when im sleepiing...

farking irritating...

super busy these few days...

jonah went back philippines...

took over his training matters...

secondary school reopen...

part timers half gone...

nobody working...

always not enough staff....

connie got transfered out to compass point with auntie chua...

cried like hell...

many want to follow connie there...

new RGM coming in tomorrow...

no morning cashier...

have to work more...

more & more debts i having...

chinese new year coming...

need buy new clothes...

utilities bill increased...

kena fark...

need give mother money pay part of it...

LWB's balance to clear by 23rd...

will work my ass out...

want to apply for private o...

syllabus changed...

thinking of applying PH manager...

pros & cons...

got to know some stupid news...

currently addicted to Left 4 Dead...

etc etc...

hais...

creating a new blog soon...

ps - darlingx: where got new friend... where got forget old friend... ~.~

2008-12-26T03:35:00.002+08:00

i hate you...

i'll haunt you forever for getting things back from hk for es & brand but not mii!

although you say theirs are only cheap cheap things...

& you gave mii your KHR de drawings...

which you drew it yourself with heart...

but i dont want!

sob sob...

dont let mii find out you bought anything for your god sis...

if not i will really really hate you & cry!!!

sob...

hais...

chiong max tune 3DX nagoya 3'10!!!

you're coming back!

2008-12-23T03:11:00.010+08:00

super random piics...

mii with xmas hat at work...

my way home de xmas decorations...

i read de newpapaer article
this man only got 20 sec de memory...
so much more jialat then mii...
so sad...

shawn hse de mahjong...
gim gim (gold gold) de...
~.~

on the way to RP...
saw my favourite plant mimosa...

the comics inside my study table...
~.~

my busy schedule 23/12/08

wake up at 10...
1pm LWM appointment...
meet 乐趣 they all at douby ghaut (spell correct anot ah?) play lan at 3...
they say got new nice game play...
then eat dinner with them...
8pm meet derrick, sky play mahjong...
2 rounds for around 4 hrs...
go back ph (midnight already)...
they got xmas party...
also dunno got people go mah...
~.~

while waiting for you to come back... ... ...

im missing you already...

2008-12-20T06:34:00.003+08:00

just came back from shawn's hse...

base $20... i won $5.50...

as usual...

sky won the most...

still tell mii dai go de...

~.~

hais...

its the same time over there in hong kong...

bet you're sleeping like a piig...

like how you always do...

are you having fun there?...

the food over there nice?...

how i wish i was there too...

how i wish you didnt go...

faster come back lah...

suddenly remember last year...

bervin went malacca for 3 days...

sent him long smses told him i missed him so much...

he couldnt receive it over there...

but to read it once he's back...

he was sweet enough to let mii know once he's back...

even miic called mii that time when he went back home...

cos they missed mii too...

~.~

now i couldnt tell you i miss you...

& you wont let mii know once you're back...

you wont miss mii too...

waiting for you to go there find a lan shop & sent mii sms thru online...

but will you?...

hais...

SQ870 2245 arrving in hk...

2008-12-19T04:53:00.007+08:00

boy drew these & sent it down to PH for mii...

(so touched... sob)

my favourite anime KHR de characters...

my favourite character Hibari Kyouya!

kamikorosu... hehe

Yamamoto Takeshi...

boy has his hair length now...

Mukuro Rokudo...

the illusionist...

hmmm... can i laminate them?...

these are not enough for my christmas present...

you so stingy lor...

he's leaving in another 16 hrs & 45 mins...

no time for mii to go loyang da be gong to get him a amulet (hu shen fu)...

but just now he say somebody from his family will get them each...

even if i got him 1...

also dunno will he accept it & carry along him...

~.~

please be back safe & sound...

will you miss mii?...

the greatest distance is...

im standing infront of you...

but you dont know that i love you...

lazy to go work...

keep thinking of mapling...

thanks darlingx if you helped mii played some...

sian 1/2

2008-12-17T21:14:00.002+08:00

woke up 12 plus to go RP reformat com...

reach there at 3 plus...

reformating takes 3 to 4 hrs...

the place close at 5.30...

so cannot repair...

go so far there wasted...

meet mami afte she work...

brought her go swensen eat...

~.~

now i owe my sister more $money$...

sian...

sky jio go play mahjong again on friday...

cannot feel any luck this time...

hais...

need to wake up very early tmr to bring com go repair...

then chions work after that from tmr onwards...

you're leaving on friday...

can you dont go?...

just stay here...

='(

never reply msgs again today...

dunno why suddenly like so sad...

hais...

need maple to un-depress (no such word)...

i want play maple!!!

2008-12-17T02:15:00.004+08:00

need to wake up later to go reformat com...

then i can download play le!!!

our lastest creation...

my lastest story...

boy's lastest drawing...

her name is Jun Izumi...

Pure Spring in japanese...

our main character...

with short hair...

nice hor?...

her name: Sumi Takeshi
Blessed Brave in japanese...
i gave the name...
our "bad" character...

hais...
our dream...
its like so far away...
so unrealistic...
will try to make it come true & accomplish it...

want to open a blog for our company & his drawing...
but lazy do the blogskins & to update everyday...
~.~

can you dont go?...
=(

will you get mii something back from hong kong?...
or will you get mii something for christmas?...
god knows...

how much do i actually stand in your heart?...
im sinking deeper...
=(

hate ma das...

2008-12-16T01:01:00.005+08:00

15th Dec 2008...

after work went home changed bath then off ot meet xiao dii & boy liao...
my hearing & eyesight problem very jialat lor...
boy actually wanted no.14 de ramen... i herad no.4...
in the end ordered the wrong one for him...
even the stall auntie heard boy want no.14 lor...
~.~
& i poured vinegar in my noodles when i wanted soy sauce...
xiao dii day there got write the word "vinegar" on the container...
im blind ~.~

walked to central park & wait for brandon to come...
boy was like shouting "brandon where are you' to the drains...
haha...
& brandon very rich lor...
can cab to boy's hse...

slack slack slack until 4...
saw ma da cia (police car QX) stop near us...
2 ma da walking towards us...
brandon faster threw his ciggs away...
boy off his song...
as we expected...
we kena screening...

that ma da just saw us only use torchlight shine on brandon ask "what are you hidding?'
brandon show him nothing then he like paiseh...
the he go shine on boy say "what are you hidding?"
"you pocket?"
"take out"
"stand up"
in the end he canoot find anything...
stupid ma da you paiseh right...
then the malay ma da ask we all how old & our ic...
told him i never bring...
he say everywhere must bring...
then i shoot him say i scared lost...
that stupid ma da then start asking we still studying mah?...
brandon so honestly tell him he waiting to go back cos he kena sack in school...
then the stupid ma da ask why kena sack... is it he always pontang?...
brandon say yah...
~.~
boy tell him he drop out...
xiao dii say he still studying...
stupid ma da ask where...
xiao dii answer him temasek poly...
i dont see a reason for telling so much things lor...
so by the time he ask mii...
i shoot him say "19 still need to study meh"
then he angry...
ask mii i got attitude problem is it...
some more say why 19 no need to studying...
then i shot back...
"19 compulsory to study meh?"
then he more angry...
say want my parents contact no...
ask mii what my father name...
i say cheng hai ***...
he heard cheng hai... knn
he ask mii how to spell...
the i angry...
his notebook there got write my name still ask mii spell my father surname...
you want play with mii issit... wtf...
then i spell for him "cheng C-H-E-N-H"
then he ask what my father contact no...
i say 9**44**9...
he shoot mii say ' i not robot pls repeat"
then i repeat 9**44**9...
the he say again " i cant catch you"
then want mii repeat...
then i repeat in english nine ** four four ** nine...
he say "i not robot" again...
can see is that stupid ma da playing with mii lor...
even xiao dii can remeber my father de no...
then xiao dii help mii repeat...
supida ma da say " i not asking you"
wtf...
the i repeat the no again slowly...
then he go ask xiao dii they all de parents name & contact no when he say he only want mine..
ma da peng wae...
then ask mii take out my cap...
den dunno look at my head for fuck...
when he ask boy...
boy dont want give his parents name...
boy start to guai lan at that stupid ma da also...
say dont want give parent nam & contact no...
ma da hot...
say want bring by back to division...
boy not scared...
boy took down that stupis ma da's name on a piece of paper in front of him...
that stupid ma da saw then say "toh wee boon" to boy...
then ask us to move away from that pavilion...
then mii & boy very angry liao...
dont want to move from there...
say want wait for that ma da to come back... we guai lan him...
like that lor...

not scared he call my parents lor...
only think that i hai le they all kena ask for names also...
boy say cos he see mii guai lan... he also guai lan to help mii...
for what siia...

dont make mii find out he screen us dont want screen other people in the park also..
& dont let mii find out who the mother fuck complain...
i'll fuck the person & ma da upside down...
& im so going to complain that stupid ma da...
toh wee boon! which hell division are you from?!
at least your malay colleague is so much better!

then xiao dii suggest we go eat mac breakfast.. cos already 4 plus liao...
on the way to mac...
i so angry until want kick the burn joss paper de bin...
but xiao dii stop mii...
then when we want to cross road...
at the traffic light...
i go fist the metal thing beside the light...
1st time i so angry until like that...

after screening & when eating...
we complain complain & complain...
this thing is going to make us complain forever...

hais... boy never answer our calls & reply our msgs again...
dunno what tantrum he throwing today...

more sian de thing is play max tune...
ghost mood or challenge with other people...
i lost all 6 games...
i so lousy...
so sad...

ma das big fuck arh?!
hate ma das in the past...
hate ma das now...
will still hate ma das in the future...

i lost throughly...

2008-12-10T05:51:00.011+08:00

went to darlingx hse to bake cookies today..

process :

ingredients that we bought
mixing everthing together

precious jayden playing a part

dough that looked like shit

cutting the shapes

into the oven!

decorating the well dones

left is mine...

cutting into smaller shapes

nicely done ones...

made 50 plus of them...

packing it up!

*yawn*

3 hrs of sleep before waking for work...

you like mii... you like mii not...

2008-12-09T04:39:00.002+08:00

i was dreaming in my dream...

in other words...

i had this dream in my dream...

dreamt when i was dream...

lol ~.~

in this dream of my dream...

you talked to mii in msn...

said something like...

paula(le er) watched the 1st episode of a new anime together...

you were happy with her...

told mii to give you up...

i woke up from my dream's dream...

in my dream...

i hope that wasnt true...

that was just a dream...

then i cried... being scared...

when i really woke up from reality...

i cant believe what i was dreaming...

& i really hope what ever i saw in my dream wasnt true...

no sense

lol

never go work even its double pay...

cleaned house the whole day...

brought mami go 802 eat crab...

she loved it so much...

keep giving praises...

good lah...

reached home not long...

boy msged mii jio mii go eat...

bocs he keep drawing & drawing until didnt realise the time...

called up xiao di...

went mac eat (again)...

super sian lor...

stupid boy still dunno when he leaving & coming back...

irritating...

man cheater

2008-12-08T06:49:00.000+08:00

new blogskin!

nice?

not bad hor?

but still figuring how about the music...

hehe

just when i was wondering when i can see him...

there i was...

accompanying him to buy things at tm...

walking round & round popular...

he bought alot of things lor...

spent $39.80 on art materials...

paper... pens... rulers etc etc...

& he bought a new GAMING keyboard + mouse for $32...

waste $ching$ $ching$...

~.~

customers were all actually nice until...

that stupid black customer argue with mii bcos of a stupid seat...

go die larh...

working enviroment was very nice too until...

stupid staffs being very stupid & disobdient...

overall night was happy until...

stupid rider from miic's side with no manners...

super sian lor...

politics in TMPH...

thats what da ge hunt says...

~.~

when are you leaving?

*no reply*

when are you coming back?

*dunno*

are you coming back to celebrate christmas?

*dunno*

hais...

already decided what to buy for you...

so pls come back early...

im scared i'll forget how you look like...

T_T

mahjong mahjong

2008-12-07T06:05:00.006+08:00

hais...

fever today...

msged 小弟say i cannot go work today...

sian...

took medicine & went back sleep...

until 5...

darlingx call mii say interchange there opened 1 new beauty salon...

promotion facial for only $10...

i very interested...

but lazy go...

see next time i walk past there still got promo lorh...

hais...

dunno mami's & my sister's 8 字 clash is it...

always quarrel...

today quarrel bcos of the tv's volume...

~.~

then mami say rash words like dont need buy her present...

no need bring her go eat to celebrate her birthday...

what can i do...

sit there keep quiet only lorh...

meet to go derrick's hse play mahjong...

sorry to kept them waiting under my blk... hehe

with darlingx derrick bennii...

& i got to know 2 new friends today...

1 is Sky...

SP bike... a fun sociable guy...

the other call Edwin...

scrambler bike...

he have a common interest as mii!

is watch anime & read manga...

but the genre very different...

~.~

he very poor thing lorh...
we jio him go play mahjong...
end up benni want to play then he can only use derrick's laptop...

then go home very early without even touching the mahjong tiles...

halfway of the game...

dunno who start to say hungry...

end up everybody hungry...

order mac...

owe bennii more $ching$ $ching$...

hais...

with bennii's beginner's luck...

i lost alot...

1st time lose so much de lor...

super sian...

bennii won so much lor...

but he splited the winnings with darlingx...

darlingx!

thank you so muchie for helping mii clearing some of my bennii's debt!

i love you so much!

muacks!

& sorry to drag the time until you go home so late...

just reached home...

Sky sent mii back...

thanks...

we never talk on my way home...

until near my hse he ask

"turn here arh?"

"bye bye... see you next friday"

gonna recover back my losses next friday!

no more fever le!

hais...

why isnt KHR out today?...

wonder when can i see you again...

mood today: good!

2008-12-05T02:15:00.005+08:00

im finally back to normal! hehe...

rain so heavy still need to rush to PH do work...
jeans drenched when i reach...
sian...

trained 2 new staffs today...
1 was actually a head prefect in his school...
wonder why he come here work...
did next week's roster...
so headache lor...
govt's new stupid rule...
did a new hire...
dont like the girl...
can i sack her?...
hmmm...

end up too many staffs...
no need for mii to work...
went to play max tune...
play 2 games lost 2 games...
sian...

my cute precious jayden... haha

bao beii kayden... haha...

like after 1 week...

i finally got to see him...

was so happy that he agreed to come down!

my worries are all gone!

i was really thinking too much...

still cant play maple at home...

say bring my com go your house repair for mii...

dunno you mean it de mah...

hais...

dunno when i can see him again...

going hongkong until 20+ then come back...

cant wait for later...

hope it the result can be very obvious...

hehe...

we're just passerbys of each other's life...

2008-12-04T01:33:00.002+08:00

i wasnt thinking too much...

it was true...

you thank mii in the smses you replied...

talked to mii like i was just some ordinary friend to you...

maybe i was to you all along...

but it shouldnt be like this!!!

it shouldnt be this way...

even xiao di says so...

its different...

why dont you just admit it?...

you're difting very far away...

although i dont love you...

but it still doesnt feel good this way...

to forget you its actually kind of easy...

but this time i dont want to...

i regret for what i did...

really regretted it...

please forgive mii...

please dont forget mii...

T_T

still suck...

2008-12-02T02:15:00.002+08:00

we finaly contacted...

but i dont feel happy at all...

it felt so weird...

not so friendly...

not like the past...

its not the real you...

things changed...

our relationship changed...

rotting...

2008-11-29T01:59:00.001+08:00

mood under construction...

will blog again once it gets better...

its not mii...

2008-11-27T00:17:00.006+08:00

im not pretty...

im not rich...

im not good...

im not nice...

im not her...

thats why im not the one...

dunno why im crazy...

dunno why im angry...

dunno why i cried...

dunno how it happened...

only know its all because of you...

i really dont love you...

but the feelings are true...

the tears are real...

please kill mii now...

god knows...

2008-11-26T02:05:00.007+08:00

boy say he have this feeling that his plane to hong kong will crash...

heart ached awhile when i hear this...

sounds a little bit bad...

but i feel this way too...

T_T

but it will never happen de...

you will come home safety & get back something for mii...

how i wish i can go too...

need go for max tune trainings...

trash those stupid GTRs...

im seriously not jealous when you talk about girls...

erm...

maybe will when you praise the girls so much...

cause im only afriad of her...

vanilla cheng

2008-11-25T00:21:00.007+08:00

just when i thot this laptop gone case liao...

cannot use for 2 weeks liao...

dont know what my sister did to "revived" it...

this com is the only entertainment i'm left with...

flunked my BTT again...

hais...

kena suan by boy...

stupid...

dont feel like taking anymore...

next slot is in jan...

sian...

i want play maple!

someone guide mii please!

but this lousy com cannot run it...

bet boy also chionging maple now...

hais...

mic help mi work today...

wore this stupid YUM shirt...

and did the stupid YUM dance...

so ugly...

he went to eat dinner with his old ugly girlfriend im midst...

& bought mii my fav PI DAN SHOU ROU ZHOU from crystal jade...

*loves*

*yawn*

tired le...

never got enough sleep for the past few days...

tomorrow working full again...

sian...

felt kind of weird when 小弟 never contact mii & boy the whole day...

when can i go darlingx's house play maple again?...

hehe...

& where can i located my manga studio without spending alot alot of $$?

you're my motivation...

patience... longest post XD

2008-11-23T04:37:00.031+08:00

woke up early in the morning as usual to meet 小弟, boy & boy's cousin...

go where?...

suntec convention hall...

for what?...

for Anime Festival Asia!!!

from 22nd Nov ~ 23rd Nov 08...
($5 entrance fee)

& i took alot of photos XD...

the small one is the tix...
big one... map...

close up on the number on my tix...

you'll see this super big gundam model when you enter...

you'll also eventually see ALOT of people cosplaying...

the lastest online game...

stalls selling toys, models & stuffs...
cute right?...

omg!
they sell voodoos here!

drawn background displayed...
very real don't you think so?...

drawn BLEACH characters...

dont know what characters are they...
but they're very nice drawn too...
hehe

toradora
one of the lastest anime/manga...
one of my favourite too...

figurines of lucky star characters!
do you sell it?...

lambo-san has appeared...

REBORN!

under the graffiti wall...
you can do some drawing if you're interested...

you see those drawings?...

boy actually wanted to draw de...

but there's no space (too mamny people crowding around...

no space on the paper also...

& he scared he draw not nice...

this stall sells tablets...

demos on how to draw using tablet & computer...

but they're very expensive...

max tune 3 machine!

how can they play without boy boy?...

the most pro driver in initial d & max tune 3! K.C.

super handsome!

can i bring him home?

after the fest we went orchard to buy boy's material again...

christmas lightings in orchard...

nice?...

they came to my house sit sit play mahjong...

asked boy helped mii download maple...
in the end found out this stupid computer has 54 VIRUSES in it!...
sad...

anti-virus software $9.99 USD...

no more virus... no need reboot com le...
but still cannot play maple...
dont know whats wrong siia...
hais...

low tide...

2008-11-22T04:06:00.003+08:00

i dont understand how can people cut themselves to this extend...

& have you realised?...

majority are girls....

hais...

low tide life...

why?...

why are you treating mii sometimes nice...

sometimes very nicely?...

sometimes cold...

sometimes very cold?...

please dont tell mii its because of her...

tongtong?...

NO!...

please dont come true....

i dont want to cry because of you...

somebody please kill mii...

reasons for hating you...

2008-11-20T00:04:00.002+08:00

dont care you're reading this or not...

i hate you for everytime not going to work...

i hate you for not answering my calls & reply my messages...

i hate you for replying es but not mii...

i hate you for always complaining this & that...

i hate you because i dont know what the hell are you thinking...

etc etc...

i hate you...

but...

maybe something happened to you?...

hais...

you wont talk to mii also =(

dear darlingx...

2008-11-19T01:45:00.005+08:00

1stly...

thank you for helping mii to get all those info for that manga course...

really appreciated it...

love you so much!

2nd...

mii boy & 小弟 going for that manga course...

you want to come along?...

go see see with mii...

3rd...

please...

please take down that pic...

its SUPER ugly...

beg you...

emo emo

2008-11-19T01:27:00.008+08:00

just realised that i actually long time never blog le...

so tired... feel so emo... dont now why...

boy's lastest product...

best of the best?...

boy ask mii create a blog for "our complany" to advertise his drawings...

but i was thinking...

still havent think of those names...

blog also no use...

~.~

suddenly got a feeling that you've been reading my blog silently...

what makes you think i was angry with you?...

i guess i gambled on love and lost...

2008-11-15T05:08:00.010+08:00

supposed to meet derrick 3 plus...

but in the end never (again)...

so accompanied darlingx go CPF building to do her statement thingy...

& we end up queueing everywhere over there...

~.~

while waiting for our turn...

we went to buy some food...

i think that they're name is very interesting...

promotion! 1 small pie at only &1!

you see the heart shape in the center?...

thats how they indicate the flavours...

its chicken ham & cheese for this...

nice...

this is flower shape is chicken & mushroom...

so cute...

natural shot...
greedy mii...
hehe

after everything...
meet boy & 小弟 (as usual)...
小弟 wanted to buy his materials for his assignment...
so we went to bugis bras basah there de art friend...
while 小弟was seriously looking & exploring...
boy & mii were also exploring...
but like fooling around...
hehe...

we found this!
大哥!!! you actually got a company!!!
haha

i need a background artist!
im going crazy!

need to thrive hard for my(our) company!
~.~

cant sleep...

2008-11-13T07:01:00.002+08:00

i dreamt that he called mii DEAR online...

& explaining to mii why he have to treat mii cold sometimes...

its was the sweetest dream i ever had (i think)...

until...

boy msg mii ask mii 'wake up liao bo?" at 5 plus pm...

saying that brandon want to meet to discuss about his work...

~.~

blah blah blah...

we ended buying a new set of mahjong...

MINI de...

and went boy house to play...

we placed a normal sized mug in the middle...

so imagine how small or mini the mahjong set is...

so cute right?...

we 边打边 laugh lor...

haha...

you like mii... you like mii not...

hungry...

2008-11-12T04:16:00.005+08:00

Calling All Racist, Countrist Against Ah Nehs!!!

Campaigning To Bombard 印度!!!
Kill All Ah Bu Neh Nehs!!!
All Blacks Are Bad!!!

imagine how angry i am... ROAR!!!

why?...

bcos work today was so fine until that stupid ah bu neh neh come eat...

who call you so late come eat?!

no more ingredients very common de right?!

KP so much for what?!

CCB!

some more say what...

"your staffs brain are all screwed"

WTF!

insulting mii gah?!

people make mistakes right!

charge wrong amount 犯法?!

if yes then come arrest mii lah!

KAN NI NEH NEH ARH

you better dont complain!

not that i scared kena scolding!

is dont make mii find out where you work!

if not i will complain like how you complain us!

ANGRY!!!

boy came back after his course at kallang...

went mac to eat as super usual...

~.~

then dont know who came up with the stupid idea of competing who eat faster...

~.~

then 小弟 bought 2 fillet o fish student meal upsized with 7up...

conclusion...

like what i excepted...

boy won...

although he almost lost bcos of the 7up

(7up gassy mah... hard to drink fast fast)

~.~

started raining outside le...

lucky boy 小弟 & brandon left early from my house...

plus boy carrying all my seventeen magazine home...

if not sure drenched de...

what we doing at my house?...

play my favourite mahjong lah...

~.~

later wake up sure kena KP by mammy de lor...

sians...

after readiing the post about darlingx went to 802 eat ramen...

feeling hungry now...

hais...

must start to diet le bah...

~.~

i can feel the difference...

hope my i have vongola family's hyper intuition...

never wrong...

our company...

2008-11-11T04:40:00.006+08:00

out of nowhere...

suddenly im a manager of a mangaka(manga artist, cartoonist in japanese), boy boy...

~.~

we provide the service of drawing and storylining...

if you any stories/plots or whatever...

want it to be drawn out...

& to be published as a manga...

~.~

boy's lastest character...

& which i think its the BEST...

i like those eyes...

hais...

time is like not enough for mii...

i have so many mangas to read...

1. Bakuman (爆画王)

from the scriptwriter & artist from Deathnote...

14 year old middle school boy with his friend...

talking about the path of becoming a mangaka...

2. Gin tama (银魂)

i dont know what is it about...

but boy keep recommending mii to read this...

say very lame... quite funny...

~.~

3. Air Gear

i was asked to read this too...

read le then let you know what is it about...

~.~

i will try my best to update my blog everyday...

just for you darlingx...

*yawn*...

hope 小弟's instinct is not true...

may you fall in love with mii...

busy busy...

2008-11-08T03:33:00.007+08:00

just came back... imagine how busy i am... ~.~

& im super tired...

& just read darlingx's blog...
quarrel?... we got quarrel before meh?...
only considered those as arguements lah...
so... you know... haha...
i feel very honored(honoured?) siia...
haha...

actually want to talk about where i went on my off day today...
but i think...
like kind of boring...
so...
forget it...

i'll be seriously starting on my manga career...
so will be very busy preparing...
for more details...
will let you know when its really done...

hais... my sister no more headache...

but keep on vomiting out whatever she consumes...

but but she say papa want send her to hospital de...

but but but mammy saw dont want...

& she kena scolding ubtil very jia lat from mammy...

poor thing...

& i cant sleep yet cos have to take care of her while doing all this until she sleeps...

hais...

really dont know what are you thinking...

can somehow feel you... ~.~

stars stars stars

2008-11-07T07:54:00.002+08:00

supposed to wake up at 10...

to meet boy boy & 小弟 later on at 12...

but...

i woke up at 5 plus...

super early right?...

slept at 1 plus...

before that...

after closing...

head super pain like hell...

too pain until 吐...

worse is... puked in public... by the roadside...

lucky its already midnight... so nobody see...

hais...

my sister now also having the same headache problem...

mine only lasted for few hours...

but hers... dont know how many days liao...

she & mammy went to CGH de A&E...

but mammy say doctor say 2 weeks later then go see specialist...

ke lian...

*worry*

hope she can recover asap...

okay...

forget those sad things...

something to share...

its very interesting to mii...

haha...

http://www.sweetestrevenge.blogspot.com/

hais... dont want to be wrong again...

can anybody tell mii how you really feel for mii?...

to be continued...

empty...

2008-11-03T03:50:00.003+08:00

miss those...

sentimental songs...

i dont know why...

out of sudden...

heart pain...

i dont know why...

looking at those pictures...

feel like crying...

i dont know why...

feeling so down...

god damn emo...

i dont know why...

why am i...

doing all these shits...

i also dont know why...

i only know that...

i cannot cry...

where the hell are you?...

what the hell are you thinking?...

hais...

things getting better...

2008-11-01T06:43:00.001+08:00

*yawn* outside raining now... the most suitable weather for sleeping...

hais... just completed the stupid rosters...

but need continue writing boy's chapter 1...

for 大哥 to read later on...

sorry derrick... say want go meet you and your friend de...

but last minute say dont want again... hehe

boy 小弟 watched [REC] at my house after work just now...

[REC] is a horror movie showing in cinemas now...

amazingly youtube uploaded the movie with english subtitles some more!

to divert our afraidness (is there such a word?) mii and boy keep talking and talking...

say this movie is hibari kyoya de movie...

biting people to death! haha...

and 小弟 like at the side want to fall asleep liao...

this movie left boy a deep impression... bcos... it gave boy a shocked!

mii?... not much comments lah...

cos i too scared until never really go concentrate and watch the movie... haha

dear darlingx,

im really happy to hear that you went to wacth "coffin" with donovan...

hope things will get better and better fot the both of you...

sorry i no money buy birthday present for you... =(

love you always darlingx!!!

glad that things are happening better between us since the past 3 days...

hope this continues... XD

~vinax

dearest...

2008-10-29T01:24:00.005+08:00

never go work today...

and just nice my sister holidays liao...

can use com at home...

mic never fail to disturb my sleep when he's working =@...

and i just chatted with him on the phone...

ask him why he call mii... he said for no reason...

we talk about his ANOTHER oncoming business plan again...

and he actually asked for my comments...

description:

its a vegetarian restaurant in CBD area...

place is around 70m2 (im still estimationg how big it is)...

only provides lunch...

so its closed on sunday (cos sunday nobody go work de)...

around 150 customers they'll be receiving...

so around 5 service staff will be needed...

monthly rent $8000+...

what do you think?...

i think...

not bad lah...

mic actually ask mii to go work there...

but after that he say forget it...

cos he say i confirm cannot wake up de...

stupid guy...

so i think...

i actually have a part in his businesses?...

my lastest love!!!

my new entertainment!!!

a very good anime for people to relieve stresss (recommended by boy boy)...

ouran high school host club

a very humorous anime...

i think funniest i ever watched... wahahaha

story is about a girl but mistaken as a boy from the start....

broke a 8 million yen vase in host club that was intended for auction...

and to pay her debts...

she joined the host club as a servant & host...

rating: ***** 5 stars...

os: research on black magic is so scary ='(

& after reading ciindy de blog i feel hungry now ~.~

we still understand each other like we used to XD

my day...

2008-10-28T00:22:00.007+08:00

today public holiday double pay...
never work full shift like usual because toooo many people working liao...
so 大哥 called mii at around 1.20pm (i just woke up dat time)...

oo oh... my mother just asked mii why i go m1 sign 1 new line... die...

oh ya... he said he's not working so ask mii to go watch m18 "tropic thunder" at 2.05pm...
so i bath and rush to tampines mall lor...

when we all reach gv like so later le...
asked for 5 tix... but the person say 5 tix 3 rows from the front...
so 乐趣 say split... 3 2... front and back row... then... okay lor...

at first we thought we in the wrong cinema... cos m18 de movie why got kids de?!

the movie i watched today...

its directed by ben stiller...
cast includes ben stiller himself... jack black... and the most amazing tom criuse!!!
but my favourite guy is the one call jay something(forgot) de... hehe...
quite a nice touching movie to mii...

should go watch it...b
but let mii inform you first...
the starting very gross in the starting of the movie...

after moive... of cos went back pizza hut to eat then start work liao...
but how knows... because of that stupid brandon's jioing of going play batte gear...
mii & boy quarrel again... infront of 乐趣大哥 & 小弟...

irritating...

then i started going crazy in pizza hut like last time...
ping scold mii say i must do things which are not worth it...
and keep on shooing mii away dont want let mii do make with her... =(

but just like mii and mic
quarrel quarrel... at night okay liao

乐趣 said something and since it going round & round and round in my head
he asked...

why mii and him so gam?...

i say maybe because 2 same age?...
then i dunno why say say say until got one part 乐趣 say i cute!!!
wahahaha...
but nan ting yi dian is i childish...

sian ~.~...
but nevermind...
im still happy...
haha...

on my career...

2008-10-24T01:12:00.002+08:00

will be joining in for the comic venture...

giving ideas?

drawing backgrounds?

will be part of it...

so things i need to buy later on...

1. bible

2. pencils

3. eraser

we're putting hopes on it and him...

jia you!!!

im back...

2008-10-22T01:03:00.003+08:00

everything happened too fast...

settled too fast...

it was just like a dream...

life goes on...

hais...

thinking of going work makes mii very sian...

nevermind...

my thursday 23 oct plans...

7.30am ~ wake up

9am ~ go tmph meeting...

+-11am ~ go back home sleep...

2pm ~ meet mic go ssdc...

3.15pm - 4pm ~ wait for mic take btt...

4pm - 6pm ~ go clementi tech centre for the stupid usb stick...

6+pm ~ with mic, meet boy boy, 大哥, 小弟, 乐趣....

go funan it mall eat sakae teppenyaki buffet!!!

wee!!!

幸福小女人

from my heart

2008-10-15T02:19:00.004+08:00

to my dearest 婆婆张玉清...

14.10.2008

R.I.P.

阿弥陀佛...

my plans for next whole week... ^^

2008-10-04T00:03:00.003+08:00

monday 06/10 ^^ :

work full...

^^ tuesday 07/10 :

work full... boy & 乐趣 go CET course...

wednesday 08/10 ^^ :

off!...

outing with boy, 乐趣，大哥，小弟 =D

lunch buffet at geek terminal...

watch BIG STAN...

shopping at bugis!!!...

^^ thursday 09/10 :

off...

boy & 乐趣 got course again...

pubbing at night...

friday 10/10 ^^ :

乐趣's birthday!!!...

off?... go out?...

dont know yet...

^^ saturday 11/10 :

off...

wake up early for BTT at 9!!!

plan so long de steamboat gathering finally's here!!!

so excited!!!

sunday 11/10 ^^ :

off...

cause confirm eat steamboat until very late...

then lazy to go work...

hehe...

work so little... pay confirm very fast finish de... ~.~

by the way...

jay chou's new album out le...

go listen...

very nice de!!!

buffet buffet

2008-10-03T03:47:00.009+08:00

just when i on my tv...

saw this channel 8 de new variety show...

永远吃不肥 BUFFET BUFFET

this show basically introduces 3 price ranges of buffet restaurants...

1. $20 and below:

Geek Terminal

it is designed to meet the needs of inbound business travellers and mobile business executives in the heart of Raffles Place, Singapore's Central Business District...

Geek Terminal is reputed to serve up one of the best coffee in town using the world famous ILLY Coffee...

besides Coffee, they serve a range of food to fuel your mind and body. they range from sandwiches, to pastas, to fish and chips or simply a great succulent steak!

2. $20 ~ $30:

Carnivore

bringing the rich traditions of Brazilian Churrasco (barbeque) to singapore in the exquisite setting of CHIJMES and VivoCity, Carnivore introduces the time honored Brazilian tradition of grilling meats over fire.

their friendly knife-welding passadors (meat waiters) move around the tables, carving the succulent meats from large skewers onto your plates.

Carnivore is a must-try for all meat lovers but even vegetarians will have a fulfilling meal. a wide buffet selection of over 15 hot and cold salads and appetisers will complement the endless flow of rotisserie-roasted meats.

3. $30 and above:

Carousel

Carousel exudes an aura of excitement and delight that an evening of superb cuisine, fine wine, and elegant surroundings can provide. 4 tastefully designed dining sections provide an unforgettable culinary moments; the living room, the state rooms, the verandah and the terrace.

be mesmerized by the enormous spread of seafood and expect succulent and tender flesh. Savour the rotisserie where the allure of delicious aromas, the sizzle and the dancing flames are enough to whet anyone’s appetite.

others include the sushi bar with artfully arranged sushi and sashimi, juice bar with exciting concoctions of flavours, bakery for take away, the Asian and Mediterranean buffet counters, the salad bar and the indulgent dessert counter for a sweet ending to the perfect meal.

looks so nice right?...
drooling right?...
go grab a bite then...
wahahaha...

endless story

2008-09-28T02:48:00.007+08:00

romaji

if you haven’t changed your mind

soba ni ite hoshii yo tonight

tsuyogaru koto ni tsukareta no
osana sugita no everytime i think about you baby
ima nara ieru i miss you
it’s so hard to say i’m sorry

tatoeba dare ka no tame ja naku anata no tame ni
utaitai kono uta wo
owara nai story tsuduku kono kagayaki ni
always tsutaetai zutto eien ni

memories of our time together
kesa nai de kono mama don’t go away

atatakaku toke dashite tashikameru no
yasashisa no shizuku kono mune ni hirogatteku
setsu nai hodo ni i’m missing you
kasaneta te hanasa naide

tatoeba kanau nara mou ichido anata no tame ni
utai tai kono uta wo
owara nai story taemanai itoshisa de
tell me why oshiete yo zutto eien ni

tatoeba dare ka no tame ja naku anata no tame ni
utaitai kono uta wo
owara nai story tsuduku kono kagayaki ni
always tsutaetai zutto eien ni

tatoeba kanau nara mou ichido anata no tame ni
utai tai kono uta wo
owara nai story taemanai itoshisa de
tell me why oshiete yo zutto eien ni

english

if you haven’t changed your mind
then i want you by my side tonight

i'm so tired of always having to bluff
everytime i think about you baby, i feel so young
if i could just tell you i miss you
it’s so hard to say i’m sorry

you see, i want to sing this song, not for just anyone
but just for you
an ENDLESS STORY that keeps on shining
always, i wanna show you, forever and ever

memories of our time together
this way, they don’t go away

once i knew that the warmth between us had disappeared,
gentle tears started to spread over my chest
this is not where it ends, i'm missing you
please don’t let go of my hand

you see, i wish i could sing this song, just for you
just one more time
an ENDLESS STORY of undying love
tell me why, please tell me, forever and ever

you see, i want to sing this song, not for just anyone
but just for you
an ENDLESS STORY that keeps on shining
always, i wanna show you, forever and ever

you see, i wish i could sing this song, just for you
just one more time
an ENDLESS STORY of undying love
tell me why, please tell me, forever and ever

-end-

to kevin goh kock oon

2008-09-27T15:36:00.002+08:00

if i got problem again... will you still help mii?...

do you think im just using you?...

but do you think its what you owe mii?...

if you're willing to help mii...

then, how easy is it for you to find a person?...

i really need your help this time...

dont know how to find you also...

i dont have your hp no...

i cant call your house in the middle of the night...

call ah xi... he scold mii...

please call mii asap...

if you're willing to help mii again...

haiz...

eee

2008-09-26T02:06:00.003+08:00

went eat mac with xiao di & boy after work...

a body builder sat next to us...

look kinda like bervin -.-...

ugly...

moreover...

he da bao hor fun eat at mac!!!

with a super big bottle de ribena!!

spoiled his whole image...

build his body also for what... -.-

stress...

initian d, mt3?

AE 86, 85?

drift, grip?

FF. MF. FR. FMR. RMR. RR. F4. M4. R4. ???

making mii headache...

must study...

need to know more about cars

& manga...

just to have the same interest as you...

haiz...

my dream story... (edited)

2008-09-23T01:47:00.004+08:00

she was the boss's woman (girlfriend)...

he was the boss's underman (right hand man)...

they were all prepared for the important function...

she wore a black dress...

he wore a black suit...

just as she left the boss's villa...

the heels that she chose for a very long time...

broke...

she started to throw tantrum...

theres no other heels can match her dress like this...

the boss dote on her so much...

for her to be happy, the boss instructed him to buy her a pair of heels...

the boss will proceed to the ball first... its not nice for him to be late...

and he will escort her to the venue after everything is done...

she waited inside the car while he went hunting for her heels...

she started to worry what type of heels when he get...

what size will he get...

he came back with a pair of black gold heels...

to her surprise...

it was more suitable then her previous one...

he wore it for her...
like how the prince wore for cinderella...

and it fits tremendously...

he actually know her foot size...

he smiled at her...

and took out a brand new phone...

"for you..."

she stunned...

a very familiar model...

the same as his!...
the same white slide phone like his!...

this moment... she felt his feelings for her...

just like how she felt for him all this while...

she lean towards him...

they cuddled each other...

with only the two of them inside the ride (plus the chauffeur of course)...
it felts like theres only two of them in the world...

the boss was reported with their every move...

how they felt for each other...

but as a boss...

he cant let them off easily...

he was angry...

the boss pretended a happy face...

after the function...

they were dragged to the back alley...

they knew this would happened...

the gang start thrashing them up...

the boss saw how he protected her...

boss's heart softened...

told his men to stop...

and he let them off...

his heart was all bitter...

he wanted her to be happy..

want her to find happiness

because boss loved her too...

- the end -

a series of unfortunate events...

2008-09-23T01:43:00.002+08:00

why?

why is he equally important as mii?

its not fair to mii...

everybody can dont understand mii...

but not you and michael!!!

no mood...

stupid mii..

2008-09-19T03:11:00.003+08:00

stop being naive...

things are not under your control...

your kindness are treated like bullshits...

enough of sacrificing and doing so much...

you're just a nobody...

haiz...

i actually miscalculated the payday...

hai boy cant go play mt...

and i cant go shopping later...

all gone...

sobx...

happy proposal...

2008-09-18T02:21:00.008+08:00

name list of people to invite for my pizza hut chinese family big gathering

1. obviously my rgm (restaurant general manger) connie
2. my bao bei michael
3. my loving auntie chua
4. a. chua's 2nd son boon ping

5. a. chua's little son beng chew

6. also my loving auntie oh

7. a. oh's husband

8. da jie alice

9. da jie's little brother guo jun

10. er jie ping ping

11. san jie dan dan

12. xiao jie winnie

13. ocean hai yang

14. yan dao da ge hunt

15. my le qu jeremine

16. xiao di eng sing

17. my boy boyjun xiong

18. mii vina!!!

date: 11 october 2008

time: after closing

venue: ~~d'peak steamboat king chinese restaurant (opp paradiz centre)~~ kallang dont know where

it'll sure be a happy and warming night...

so excited...

hehe XD

shopping list

2008-09-18T02:21:00.003+08:00

things that i want to buy tomorrow (friday)...

~ 2 pairs wont lak sek (fade colour) de black (skinny) jeans...

~ white (or black) slippers...

~ white short sleeve shirt... (dont know topshop have anot)

~ heart shaped necklace... (not easy to find lor)

~ white t-shirts... (i like white no choice)

hmmm...

still thinking of what to wear tomorrow...

see what boy boy wear... then i pei he him bah...

haha

bo liao de yi tian...

2008-09-16T02:57:00.012+08:00

boy boy drew this early in the morning...

ask mii to help him advertise...

and he slept very "early" because of drawing this -.- ...

what do you think?...

accompanied alice & winnie go star course with boy boy...

took this photo on our way back to mrt station...

and thats the moon...

very bright hor?...

after the last time boy boy fa pi qi...

finally got to play pool with him & ayi...

just when i thought i suck in pool...

they're worse...

seriously -.- ...

went under block to zor zor(sit sit)...

started to talk cock & play with zippo(& fire)...

the effect came out of this photo not bad hor?...

looks like a crown to mii...

boy boy jio mii to go hong kong this december 9 with his family...

shopping!!!...

i would loved to...

but...

coincidently its mummy's birthday...

boy's mummy booked the tour already...

and the most importantly...

i got no money!!!

1000+++!!!

go rob bank lor...

wanted to upload the bo liao videos we shot when zor zor...

but dont know why like cannot leh...

never mind...

i try the next time...

still cant wait for friday...

learning more and more of your habits...

2008-09-14T22:47:00.005+08:00

my lastest love...

reading this "katekyo hitman reborn" manga online...

reading manga... watching anime... listening to japanese songs... playing max tune...

不知不觉
im becoming like you... learning all your habits...

i cant wait for friday... so excited...

wee!!!

understanding...

2008-09-12T01:48:00.004+08:00

haiz... complained to mic again today...
who can really understand in my position...

a little break it would help...
but where got time for mii to realx?...
haiz...

this fish is actually a stain from boy's uniform...

he also dont know how he got it... haha...

busy day... long entry...

2008-09-10T01:31:00.015+08:00

summary of my busy schedule today(yesterday)...

woke up at 9...

* met winnie & boy boy at 11...

* go suntec convention... see IT fair... ge ko cannot find(or dont have i also dont know)...

* go bugis... winnie buy laptop... i bought my bluetooth headset & my mummy want 4gb mmc...

* eat lunch at qq mian...

* go amk take luggage from comfort service centre...

* back to ph give luggage to dan dan...

* acc winnie see room...

* go arcade play mt...

* dinner at 500+...

* go home bathe...

* go 800+ cheers meet boy & ayi...

- end of summary -

what i learnt today...

~ problems happening between my 4 jie jies...

~ how people rent rooms...

~ ah heng kena suspended form work...

- end of reflection -

1st time see boy boy wear cap... plus my specs...

so i must take picture to liu nian... hehe

never style hair de boy boy...

and also the1st time he guai guai let mii take pictures wor...

and after the sim lim trip today...

mii and boy boy decided to see each other everyday for the next 2 months...

opps!...

is to work full shift together everyday...

(to save money to buy the things we want...)

hehe...

if cham see all these she'll be very jealous de lor... hehe

where are all my kakis?! i want to play mahjong!!!

ps: still worrying about heng... wonder how is he now...

what a day...

2008-09-03T03:13:00.005+08:00

i never wanted to see or talk to him ever in my life de!...

i dont want!...

brainwash mii!... make mii forget!...

all beacuse of boy boy lah!...

sobz...

what feeling is this?...

2008-08-29T05:33:00.005+08:00

do you think you of him any time of the day?...

yes

do you wish to have him with you every where?...

yes

do you get jealous because of him?...

yes

do you get unreasonable because of him?...

yes

do you care about the words he said?...

yes

that means doom...

because you're in love...

hong kong dramas...

2008-08-28T04:03:00.011+08:00

dont know whether is it mii or the dramas...

is it too touching untill i always sob while watching...
or is it mii being too emotional...

especially these 2 hong kong dramas (they're and favourite too)...

this is series 2...

with the same cast but 2 different touching stories...

both are talking about conflicts within rich family...

although sounds a lil' bit unrealistic...

but i think its so much better then local drama...

night tour...

2008-08-25T07:36:00.002+08:00

got the sudden urge of playing arcade...

so mii boy & yi went to parklane in the middle of the night...

but the place closes at 2...

then we went on walking around esplande...

and took some of these nice pictures...

this is from the decorated tree at lau pa sat...

for my precious...

2008-08-20T07:15:00.004+08:00

today's my precious jayden's 2nd birthday...

your precious place in my heart wont be replaced de...

sorry gan ma no money buy present for you...

but this clip below...

is specially found for you...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

没有杨喆的第一天...

2008-08-20T07:01:00.005+08:00

the first time after so long... im working without you...

all this shouldnt happen...

i think of you...

in the midst of keying order...

remind mii of how you complain that i always key wrong hawa as veggie...

and how you always clear my "shit"

halfway i wipe 203 table...

remind mii of how you tease mii of how i wipe that table...

like sawing...

and when i saw es use your name tag...

remind mii of how you worked wearing staff's uniform...

on my way to coffeeshop...

the path we used to take together...

how much laughter we had through out...

no more... not anymore...

until then, then i actually realised that my feelings for lqh was just nothing...

HATE JOHN LOCK

give mii back michael...

(ba michael huan gei wo)

o.O

2008-08-19T06:20:00.005+08:00

course was dismissed earlier then i expected...

but it wasnt something to happy for mii and ayi...

because...

we're riding bike!!! T_T

needless to say... we reach tampines... drenched...

went back ph cos jx say he waiting for us...

shui zhi dao... he still there, havent leave yet...

"go eat leh... i hungry..." i say...

so mii him jx and ayi went to 201 there de malay coffeshop eat...

we sat there for around 3 hrs bah...

eat... chit chat... laugh...

he say "he never laugh this heartily or 7 8 years le"...

i agree...

you know what?!

he saw his photo as my wallpaper!

a little bit pai seh lah...

but never mind... he also knows how i feel for him...

haiz...

the feedback i sent... it dosent help as expected...

what needs to be happen... will happen...

2008-08-17T13:36:00.005+08:00

my greatest fears are always finally here.

he's leaving... and im crying.

will there be any miracle?...

"theres no miracle!" he said...

a very interesting mv...

2008-08-15T04:15:00.005+08:00

only you...

2008-08-10T06:03:00.004+08:00

i'll try to put more english entries...

just for you...

cindy

猪的感人爱情故事。。。

2008-08-04T02:24:00.000+08:00

晚上公猪总是为母猪守夜，生怕主人乘他们熟睡时把母猪拉出去宰了。
日子一天天地过去，母猪日渐长胖，而公猪则一天天瘦下去。

有一天，公猪突然听见主人在跟屠夫商量，要把长势见好的母猪杀了给卖掉，公猪伤心至极。
于是从那天开始公猪性情大变，每当主人送吃的时候，公猪总抢上去把东西吃的一干二净，每天吃好后便躺下大睡，并且告诉母猪，现在换做她来守夜，如果他发现她没有守夜的话，就再也不理她。

渐渐的日子一天天过去，母猪觉得公猪越来越不在乎她，母猪失望了，而公猪还是若无其事地过着安乐日子。
很快一个月过去了，主人带着屠夫来到猪圈，他发现一个月前肥肥壮壮的母猪瘦的没剩多少肉，而公猪则长的油光。
这时的公猪拼命的奔跑，想引起主人的注意，表明他是头健康的猪。终于，屠夫把公猪拖走了。

在拖出猪圈的那一刻，公猪朝着母猪笑着说：“以后别吃这么多！”

母猪伤心欲绝，拼命的冲出去，但圈门被主人关上了，隔着栅栏，母猪看着闪着泪光的公猪。

那晚，母猪望着主人一家开心地吃着猪肉，母猪伤心地躺倒在以前公猪每天睡的地方，突然她发现墙上有行字：“如果爱无法用言语来表达，我愿意用生命来证明！”

我曾这样的爱过你

2008-08-04T02:12:00.001+08:00

20年前，16岁的我初尝到了初恋的味道。那天，我的身份是这个班级的插班生。这个学校的成绩在市里不算好，但我父母只是普通工人，没能力为我求到一个更好的学习环境。学习成绩优异以一种很灰的心情加入了这个集体，直到我认识了他。

他身材颀长，鼻梁很高，躲在近视镜片后是两只含笑的眼睛。那天，当数学老师宣布数学测试我是第一名时，就在我抬头的那一刻，我看到了他的笑，那个笑容，就深深的收藏在我的心里了。

从那次测试开始，我的座位就被调整了，就在他身边。那是个重视分数的年代。坐在他旁边，我感觉到了旁边时不时传来的温热的目光。我闭上了眼睛-----外面春暖花开，鸟语花香。

50厘米宽的过道，并不能阻挡住两颗年轻的心，我们讨论着学习，笑谈着人生，那时开始，我才知道他也只是一个插班生。

我和他依然是班里的佼佼者，成绩不分上下。而我心里，也同样是千树万树梨花开。因为我的日记里，全是一个人的名字，写的全是这个名字的种种。

但谁能阻挡我的喜欢？我就这样放肆的爱着！每天我会提早回到座位，只为了等到他的回来，在入门时那会心的对视。但如果他有事请假，我就会那样的不安。只要他出现在篮球场上，我就会停留在走廊，远远的看着他娇健的身影，犹如一只雄鹰！

90年的夏天，我们都考上了中专，只是在不同的城市。毕业册上，全班的留言，唯独没有他的！而他的留言册，也没有我的笔迹。

拿着全班同学的毕业合照，我只看到了一个人，那就是他。我不知道我们彼此为什么不留言，但在走出校门的那一刻，我的心痛得碎了！

在新的一个学习环境里，我依然如常的继续我的求学生涯。在那个充满痛苦与绝望的日子里，我似乎把自己练成了百毒不侵，直到那封信的出现！

他的信来得那么的突然，让我措手不及！

他的信是由一个陌生人寄来的，那是他的同桌。他的同桌说他旧病复发，停学一年，己回家休养。同桌在帮他收拾东西时，发现了他写下的十多封同一地址，却没寄出的信，于是帮他全部寄来了。

我内心如五雷轰顶，刹那间，一声惊雷告诉我一个事实：他从未忘记以往的一切！当我在绝望痛苦的同时，他也在苦苦煎熬！不仅精神上，还有肉体上！

当我出现在他家时，我依然无法平复我的心情。我要告诉他：无论发生什么事，我都愿与他一同分担。

一个更大的意外把我的心打乱了。他不愿见我！我哭了，拍打着他的房门，哭求他开门。然而，回答我的是一个曾在我梦里出现无数次现今却冷冰冰的声音：你走吧，以后也不要再来！妈妈，她再来，我便不吃药！他妈妈泪流满脸，小声哀求我：你们的事我都知道。回去吧，别让我为难了！

那天下着大雨，我独自在雨中走着，一边走一边掉眼泪，我不知道我该走向何方！寒冷的雨水打得我的脸针一样的痛，和着泪水在我的脸上纵贯驰骋！

那个冬天很长，长得好像永远也走不过。我不敢再上他家，真怕他真的不吃药。他是个说到做到的人。我把他的信一封一封的看了又看，读了又读，直到我可以倒背如流，我还是每天都看着！那信里的言词让我心跳，让我心痛！

无数次，我特意在他家人楼下经过，期待着街中的偶遇，或是他在阳台上的健影！有时我会情不自禁的顺着他家的楼梯向上走，却在听到脚步声时，又匆忙逃离。那年的冬天，我像个傻子！

几年后，同学聚会，我提前问同学，参加者的名单。她说了很多，而我只为了听一个人的名字，果然有他！

他变了，从前挺拨的，潇脱的身材，现在成了名符其实的大胖子了，只是那眼神，还是那样的令我陶醉！我开始有点明白他为什么不见我了。

后来一个同学告诉我：一向善言的他那晚一言不发，醉了........

又过了两年，还是个下着大雨的冬天，我收到了一个大包裹。里面是他这几年的日记和他一直都写给我却没寄出的信........................

他走了，心脏病。走时只有20多岁，未婚，也没真正拍过拖................

他临走前跟他妈妈说：把他的日记和信寄给我，他要我知道：我的爱从来都不是孤独的........................

如果一个女孩为你哭泣

2008-07-18T00:48:00.003+08:00

假如你的生命里有这样一个女孩,她既不漂亮，也不温柔，但她很可爱，和她在一起的日子你很快乐。很遗憾她不是你喜欢的那种女孩，她始终无法带给你那种心跳的感觉。在你的生命里，她只是充当了一个过客的角色，来则来，走也不会给你留下任何感情的纠葛。

女孩有时很调皮，约好一起骑车去郊游，见了面却发现原来她是要你带著她走。说好一起去看电影，可到了电影院门口，她却说忘了带票，然后让你陪她流浪街头到午夜。她会在约你不成时，偷偷将一枚发卡放在你的衣兜里，第二天再打电话让你把发卡给她送去。。。。。

女孩有时也很乖，她会静静的听你说话，望著你的眼睛发呆，如凝视一尊唯美的雕像。有时你也会告诉她："其实你也挺很可爱。" "是么？"女孩笑道。然后一脸的遗憾：" 可爱有什么用，我爱的人又不爱我"。" 你爱上谁了？" 你一脸的疑惑。女孩笑而不答。

你曾认为你们的友谊如钢铁长城般坚不可摧，你也为有这样一位红粉知己而暗自庆幸。她对你关怀倍至，而你也视她为你的哥们，她的事你也总是义不容辞。

女孩有时也很烦，她总是不厌其烦的给你打电话，让你陪她去这去那，而不管你的心情有多坏。她总是让你陪她吃这吃那，全然不顾你的胃口有多糟。她也总能让你吃下许多奇怪的食品，让你充当她的实验品，替她尝那些看似美味，但却不知味道如何的街边小吃。

不过女孩其实也很好，每次旅行回来总不忘给你带回一些小礼物，或是一串佛珠，或是一只海螺，都是美丽精巧,虽然它们在你的手里总是会不知去向。她也会在你生的时候把几盒上好的药用洁白的手绢包好放在你的桌子上，并不忘准时给你打电话，提醒你吃药。

时间一天天过去，女孩的关怀也越来越无微不至，似乎有点超出了作为朋友而应有的界限。渐渐的你开始担心,担心一些不该发生的事会发生。。。。。。

有一天，女孩问你：" 如果有一天我离开了你，你会伤心么？" 你坚决的回答到：" 不会！" " 为什么？" " 因为你不是我的女朋友。" " 那我做你的女朋友吧？" 你一脸真诚的回答道：" 我想我们还是作朋友比较好，如果你选择离开，我会为你祝福。"

女孩依然快乐如以往，只是眼里似乎多了一丝忧郁。女孩给你打电话的次数少了。你们见面的次数与她电话的个数成正比。因为她永远不可能成为你生活的主旋律，所以你从不给她打电话。即使很长时间不见面，你也没有觉得有什么不对。你已经习惯了她的主动。

那年的圣诞节，女孩送给你一条白色的围巾，她告诉你这是她织成的第一件成品，费了很多功夫的。你不肯收。女孩说：“收下吧，这里的冬天很冷的。”情人节的那天，女孩送你一条皮带，你又不肯收，女孩说：“别以为我要栓住你，我不会自作多情的，只是见你成天用朋友的皮带怕人家心里不愿意，嘴上又不好意思说，才给你买了一条送给你，你可千万别多心。

以后的日子。女孩越来越多的凝望你的眼。每次分手的时候都会恋恋不舍，好象每次分手都是永诀，走时还不忘问你：“不想对我说点什么吗？”“天黑了，路上小心点。”你一脸的关切。谢谢”女微笑道，声音里有一点苦涩。望著她消失在夜幕中的背影，你自言自语到：“你真傻。”

她在你的生命里已经存在了很久，当她渐渐远离你的时候，你也没有在乎过，因为你不爱她。你们是朋友，也只是朋友。

“以前我们在一起的日子很快乐不是么？” “是的，很快乐。”“那你有没有烦过我？”“说实话，有过。”“难道你没有觉得我对你的感情超过了作为朋友的界限？”“没有呀，觉得我们是模范好朋友。”你撒谎到。女孩停了下来，等你。你晃了半天才走到她的身边。“唉，我担心的事终于要发生了，她的自制力怎么这么差，我们本可以是很好的朋友的。有一个异性知己多不容易呀。看来我们的友谊就要到此为止了。”此时，你的心情复杂。

女孩忽然转过身来，望著你.片刻后，说道：“我爱你：”“哦，我们现在不是模范好朋友了。”你声音低沉的说。“我爱你”女孩倔强的又说了一遍。“那又能怎么样呢？”你抬起耷了了半天的眼睛，直视女孩火辣辣的目光。

女孩扭过头去，半天没有说一句话。“你爱我么？”女孩开始继续向前走。“不爱。”这种拒绝你早已是轻车熟路。“你以后会爱我么？”“不会。”“为什么？”“我们相处的日子不短了，我要是爱你。早就爱了，不会等到现在。”你苦口婆心的说道。“如果你爱我，你会告诉我么？”“当然会，如果我早上爱上了你，不到中午‘我爱你’这三个字，我就会对你说过不下100次了。” 女孩停下了脚步，你也停在了离她不远的一个花池边，拿出一只烟。点著。。。。。。

女孩一直没有说话，也没有继续向前走。你知道她在哭。渐渐的她哭的声音越来越大，她一边哭，一边说：“我就知道会是这样，我早就知道。”她泣不成声的告诉你，她曾是多么的爱你。而又不敢告诉你。她不奢望得到你的爱，她只是想告诉你，她爱你爱了很久很久。和你在一起的日子快乐也痛苦。每次望著你的时候，就会觉得你近在咫尺而又远在天涯，爱你爱了这么久，可却一点也不了解你。你总是对关于自己的事绝口不提。让她觉得你的心离她很远很远，够也够不著。虽然你就在她的身边。

她说她爱你爱的很辛苦，所有你们在一起的快乐日子都成了她痛苦的根源，无时不思，无刻不想，连梦里也不得安生，她的脑海里装满了你的影子，挥之不去。想你的时候。两只手疯狂拍打自己的头，却也无法摆脱对你思念的苦。

她哭了很久很久，哭的很痛很痛，说的每一句话都是夹杂著她的抽泣。那是一种感情的宣泄，那止不住的泪水就向对你的爱如滔滔江水般破堤而出。每一滴泪都是爱的宣言。“为什么要对你掉眼泪，你难道不明白是为了爱。。。。。。”

让女人最幸福的一句话

2008-07-12T05:09:00.002+08:00

某电视台搞一个小活动：征集最令女人感到幸福的一句话。应征的话语如雪片飞来，最终摘取桂冠的是这一句“你躺着，我起来。”

这句话背后有一个故事。

一对男女结婚后，很快有了孩子。由于没有老人帮忙，又没有多余的钱请保姆，女人只好独自担起育儿持家的工作，男人为了一家的生计在外奔波。但孩子没有父母期望的那样健康，先得了黄疸，后来又得了肺炎。为给孩子治病，男人更加起早贪黑地工作；为了照料孩子，女人产后根本没能好好休息。为了给新生婴儿好好活着的希望，也为了给对方添加一点勇气，男人回家时都要在门外理理蓬乱的头发，拍拍西装上的灰尘，然后抖擞精神挺直身板去按门铃；而女人听到楼梯上传来熟悉的脚步声，也总是赶紧扯一扯因为抱孩子和做家务而皱巴巴的衣服，一边撇起零乱的刘海，一边堆上笑容向门口迎去。有一天，女人无意中从猫眼里发现了男人的秘密。她哭了，然后很快抹掉眼泪，仍旧挂上灿烂的笑容为男人开门。

女人打心底心疼男人。夜里孩子哭闹时，不管自己怎么累，她也不叫醒男人，而是自己悄然起身。很快，男人发现了女人的秘密，他变得更加细心了，夜里孩子一有动静，他准能立刻睁开眼睛，然后伸手轻轻地压一压她，说：“你躺着，我起来。”因为孩子有病、爱哭闹，所以每晚男人都要重复那句话很多次。

主持人讲完了。一个白发苍苍的女人，牵着一个同样满头银丝的男人出现在观众的面前。老婆婆已经热泪盈眶，她指着老伴儿说：“故事里的男人就是他，女人就是我。我们结婚58年了，至今想起他说的这句话，我心里还是暖烘烘的。”

听完老伴儿的话，老先生张开无牙的嘴，笑了。

so much...

2008-07-04T02:49:00.008+08:00

suddenly, this world seems like a stranger to mii...

things were so expected...

i knew what i was doing...

i know what should i do...

everything came unexpectedly...

what i think was right went wrong...

what i think was wrong when right...

and spoils my everything...

i cant accept the truth...

i cant accept in this reality...

what should i do?...

what can i do?...

what position am i in?...

where will i be going?...

conclusion is always true...

i have to get over you...

男人只有一滴眼泪 (touching...)

2008-07-01T01:01:00.008+08:00

有个女孩非常希望能看见自己的男朋友的眼泪，那个坚强的男人从未在她面前流过泪，日子一年年的过去，他们的幸福让女孩愈加好奇男人的眼泪，他究竟什么时候才会哭一次呢？“傻瓜，别试着想看见我的泪，真有那一天，那么肯定是有非常悲痛的事情发生。”他懂她的小心眼，却又忍不住笑她的纯真。
女孩的好奇得不到满足，她想知道男人的眼泪是什么样的，究竟是苦是咸？上天给了她机会，天使光顾了她的家。

“真的想看见他的眼泪吗？”天使问她。

“能有办法吗？”

“可以，不过你会消失几天。”

“我上哪儿去了呢？”

“变成了空气中的水，但你能时刻陪着他，看着他，你愿意吗？”

女孩瞬间变成了空气中的水，一切变得新鲜。先看看他现在在干什么。停靠在男人房前的窗户上，她看见男人正在辛勤地工作，计算数据，制作图表，忙得不亦乐乎。忽然他走到了电话机前，她想起每天晚上10点他们都会通个电话，他打不通电话会怎么样呢？她愈发好奇，瞪大眼睛看着。果然他拨了好多次都没人回应，这么早就睡了？让她睡个好觉吧，男人嘴角浮现出温柔的笑容。她却有点失望，为什么不着急呢？

第二天，男人准时上班下班，忙碌了一天，回到家马上又给女孩打了个电话，仍然无人应答。男人开始不停打电话，打遍了所有朋友和亲戚的电话，没有人知道女孩去了哪里。男人似乎有点急了，在房间里走来走去，她在窗口有些幸灾乐祸

男人穿起外套，甩门而出，她紧随其后。

先来到了女孩的家，大门紧闭，邻居说昨天晚上就没见到她。女孩父母的家中，两个老人以为他们俩在一起，看着二老鬓角斑白，他不忍告诉老人她失踪了。看着他眼角的焦急，她有点后悔了。

整个晚上，他没睡觉，他找遍了所有他们约会过的地方，到处都有她的身影，可又找不到她。一夜的奔波让他憔悴了一大圈，连他一向整洁引以为豪的下巴也长出了胡子。他累了，瘫倒在沙发上。她忍不住想摸摸他的胡子渣，想给他盖条被子，可她只是空气中的水啊！她想对天使说，我不想看见他的泪了，让我变回人吧！可天使没有再光顾她的家。

第三天，男人依然要上班，可是眼里没有了以前的光彩，走着路会突然转过身找什么，她以为他发现了自己，可她只是透明的水气啊！她只能笑自己的纯真。男人下班后不再直接回家，来到了他们约会的老地方，那儿有棵老梧桐。他坐在梧桐树下的座椅上，显得那么孤单。他好象在想些什么，在等些什么。“你会出现的，对吗？”

第四天，男人又来到了这里，并带来了一块小玻璃石，里面还有一艘小帆船。他不发一言，只呆呆地望着玻璃石。她想起他们说好以后要一起出海旅行。

第五天，男人没来，她在他的床上找到了他，他在睡觉吗？看着他苍白无神的脸，她心痛地快死去，天使，你归来吧！

第六天，男人把玻璃石扔进了大海，让他的心一起沉入大海。她一阵心酸，天使，让我变回人吧!

天使终于来到了她身边，

“太晚了，你马上就要离开这世界，和他吻别吧！”

她的泪瞬间落了下来，一周的消失就让他憔悴成这样，要是自己真的不在了，他该怎么办？她吻了吻他的唇，发现他的唇上有了一滴泪，那就是自己。原来男人的眼泪就是她！

她大声叫唤着，不，我不要离开……

还好，那只是一个梦，她在庆幸的同时告诉自己，再也不要看见男人的眼泪了，因为那便意味着自己的消失……

~本文摘自《经典文章》...

相识,相知的缘份.

2008-06-28T02:17:00.001+08:00

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