07 January 2007

U think ur hurt?? U think that there might be a chance that i mayb wanted 2
talk 2 u also and i'm not angry abt the part i waited in vain for nothing
until 3 plus.. u know how pissed i was when sdq called me wif dan babbling
in the background like as if i'm controlling u what they think right?? make
me look like wat! and i dont even want 2 know the way u reacted when they
called cause u must have been acting the exact opposite i would have wanted
u 2 be behaving.. and u dont even bother 2 msg and apologise 2 me or
anything..  and fyi even after that i still had trouble sleeping tats how
used i am 2 talking 2 u.. and dont say i never tell u i want 2 talk u know i
have a very big ego so u think i'm gonna say smtg like tat i just want 2 act
like dont care right..

And sorry if ur hurt abt the testi 2 me a testi is no big deal i didnt know
you'll be that hurt.

Also u want 2 talk abt how much u mean 2 me.. if u mean nothing or at least
all u think i'm would change my sleeping pattern for somebody who meant
little 2 me and the way u always treat me i tolerate and talk 2 u if u meant
little 2 me u think i will tolerate?!? and smtg u dont know u know on the
days ur working there are time that i wait for u 2 come online one day i
still remember very clearly was the day u watch movie wif dan and edde, i
waited for hours until i tot u were gonna mia so i went offline and msg u b4
sleeping, now u know i wait 4 u 2 come online,  if u meant little would i do
smtg like that?? and if ur no one 2 me would i care when u cry am i not
always concern for u when u cry after all this and u still can say now u noe
how much u mean 2 me.. It's sad

TAlk abt how much u mean 2 me.. do u ever think abt how u treat me u always
say that i mean lots 2 u and i believe but u think of just how abt the way u
treat me ok.. its saddening u always gimme that dont care atitude when u see
me ok..but still i tolerate and talk 2 u..ur always laughing at me and stuff
like that.2 many things

So i hope this clears up everything and u know how much u mean 2 me..

Do me this favor and think after u read this
think abt the way ur always only caring abt the way u feel like as if i have
no feelings but i always keep it inside, think abt the u treat me after u
now know how i feel abt everything, think abt me and think if i really mean
that much 2 u why do u really behave the way u do around me and put urself
in my shoes abt how i feel all u do is buy stuff but never care abt my
feelings i would give all the material things u bought for me just for u 2
treat me as a real friend like how i've treated u.


And btw i wanted 2 talk 2 on the fone u today but u went out wif ur frens so
nvm.. and everything i type here is the truth from my heart. and my eyes are
wet and red not crying but wet after thinking of all this..

Yours Truly